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If You're Going Through Hell, Keep Going.

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I just wish that, if you have an issue with me, please tell me.

Don’t act as if nothing is wrong and let me go on thinking everything is awesome. Just fucking tell me when I’m being annoying, a bother, a bitch. Tell me please.

I don’t want to upset people, anger people. I want to make people happy and if there is something that is making someone really upset, I can take a look at it and see if it’s something that I can work on.

Not telling me and pretending it doesn’t exists just hurts. If you don’t want to be my friend, just say so.

Filed under writing September 7 2012 September 2012

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It’s not that I love you. I don’t even know what that would feel like, what that would mean. It’s not like I’m falling in love with you. That would be a new experience, a new ride I’m not ready for.

But I really fucking like you. You make my heart feel good and you make it hurt. You make me smile and you make me cry. You make me feel so many emotions and most of them are wonderful.

I just want you to think about me, the way I think about you. I want you to see me. But you can’t. For more than one reason, and I understand.

And I’ll be okay. Being your friend is hard now, yes. But I love our friendship and I care about you so much. Not being your friend would be 1000x worse, than being your friend when I want to kiss your face and I can’t. I’d rather have you in this limited capacity, then not have you at all.

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I’m shy.

I’m knees-shaking, shortening of breath, lack of eye contact shy. Talking to people I’ve never met makes me feel faint. It’s a trait that has caused me to have a lack of normal social skills. I have few friends because of this. The ones I do have are people who have been there since high school. People I didn’t meet personally, but was introduced to through old friends. I don’t really make friends on my own. People see me, my average face, average body, lack of proper social skills, and they assume I’m aloof, cold. They don’t want to be my friend, they think I’m boring or rude.

I can never tell which one is worse.

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Modern American Poetry: Audio Masterpost

» A brief sampling of some of the 20th century’s greatest American poets reading their own works. Links are to the poem’s text and author bios.
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The Lake Isle of Innisfree by WB Yeats
The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost
Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening by Robert Frost
So-and-So Reclining On Her Couch by Wallace Stevens
Not Ideas About The Thing But The Thing Itself by Wallace Stevens
Queen-Ann’s-Lace by William Carlos Williams
To Elsie by William Carlos Williams
The Red Wheelbarrow by William Carlos Williams
Spring And All by William Carlos Williams
This Is Just To Say by William Carlos Williams
from Hugh Selwyn Mauberly by Ezra Pound
The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock by TS Eliot
as freedom is a breakfastfood by ee cummings
my father moved through dooms of love by ee cummings
pity this busy monster,manunkind by ee cummings
The Negro Speaks of Rivers by Langston Hughes
I, Too by Langston Hughes
A Shropshire Lad by John Betjeman
The Licorice Fields At Pontefract by John Betjeman
Musee de Beaux Arts by W.H. Auden
The Shield Of Achilles by W.H. Auden
The Fish by Elizabeth Bishop
A Refusal to Mourn… by Dylan Thomas
Skunk Hour by Robert Lowell
Homes After Three Months Away by Robert Lowell
Howl by Allen Ginsberg
Calypso by Kamau Brathwaite
Thrushes by Ted Hughes
Daddy by Sylvia Plath

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Modern American Poetry: Audio Masterpost

» A brief sampling of some of the 20th century’s greatest American poets reading their own works. Links are to the poem’s text and author bios.

» download (.zip, mediafire)

  1. The Lake Isle of Innisfree by WB Yeats
  2. The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost
  3. Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening by Robert Frost
  4. So-and-So Reclining On Her Couch by Wallace Stevens
  5. Not Ideas About The Thing But The Thing Itself by Wallace Stevens
  6. Queen-Ann’s-Lace by William Carlos Williams
  7. To Elsie by William Carlos Williams
  8. The Red Wheelbarrow by William Carlos Williams
  9. Spring And All by William Carlos Williams
  10. This Is Just To Say by William Carlos Williams
  11. from Hugh Selwyn Mauberly by Ezra Pound
  12. The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock by TS Eliot
  13. as freedom is a breakfastfood by ee cummings
  14. my father moved through dooms of love by ee cummings
  15. pity this busy monster,manunkind by ee cummings
  16. The Negro Speaks of Rivers by Langston Hughes
  17. I, Too by Langston Hughes
  18. A Shropshire Lad by John Betjeman
  19. The Licorice Fields At Pontefract by John Betjeman
  20. Musee de Beaux Arts by W.H. Auden
  21. The Shield Of Achilles by W.H. Auden
  22. The Fish by Elizabeth Bishop
  23. A Refusal to Mourn… by Dylan Thomas
  24. Skunk Hour by Robert Lowell
  25. Homes After Three Months Away by Robert Lowell
  26. Howl by Allen Ginsberg
  27. Calypso by Kamau Brathwaite
  28. Thrushes by Ted Hughes
  29. Daddy by Sylvia Plath

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102 Resources for Fiction Writers

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Are you still stuck for ideas for National Novel Writing Month? Or are you working on a novel at a more leisurely pace? Here are 102 resources on Character, Point of View, Dialogue, Plot, Conflict, Structure, Outlining, Setting, and World Building, plus some links to generate Ideas and Inspiration.

CHARACTER, POINT OF VIEW, DIALOGUE

10 Days of Character Building

Name Generators

Name Playground

The Universal Mary Sue Litmus Test

Priming the idea pump (A character checklist shamlessly lifted from acting)

How to Create a Character

Seven Common Character Types

Handling a Cast of Thousands – Part I: Getting to Know Your Characters

It’s Not What They Say …

Establishing the Right Point of View: How to Avoid “Stepping Out of Character”

How to Start Writing in the Third Person

Web Resources for Developing Characters

What are the Sixteen Master Archetypes?

Character: A compilation of guidance from classical and contemporary experts on creating great dramatic characters

Building Fictional Characters

Fiction Writer’s Character Chart

Character Building Workshop

Tips for Characterization

Fiction Writer’s Character Chart

Villains are People, Too, But …

Top 10 Tips for Writing Dialogue

Speaking of Dialogue

Dialogue Tips

Advantages, Disadvantages and Skills (character traits)

How to Write a Character Bible

Character Development Exercises

All Your Characters Sounds the Same — And They’re Not a Hivemind!

Medieval Names Archive

Sympathy Without Saintliness

Writing the Other: Bridging Cultural Difference for Successful Fiction

Family Echo (family tree website)

Interviewing Characters: Follow the Energy

100 Character Development Questions for Writers

Behind the Name

Lineage Chart Layout Generator

PLOT, CONFLICT, STRUCTURE, OUTLINE

How to Write a Novel: The Snowflake Method

Effectively Outlining Your Plot

Conflict and Character within Story Structure

Outlining Your Plot

Ideas, Plots & Using the Premise Sheets

How to Write a Novel

Creating Conflict and Sustaining Suspense

Plunge Right In … Into Your Story, That Is!

Fiction Writing Tips: Story Grid

Tips for Creating a Compelling Plot

Writer’s “Cheat Sheets”

The Thirty-six (plus one) Dramatic Situations

The Evil Overlord Devises a Plot: Excerpt from Stupid Plotting Tricks

Conflict Test

What is Conflict?

Monomyth

The Hero’s Journey: Summary of the Steps

Outline Your Novel in Thirty Minutes

Plotting Without Fears

Novel Outlining 101

Writing the Perfect Scene

Fight Scenes 101

Basic Plots in Literature

One-Page Plotting

The Great Swampy Middle

SETTING, WORLD BUILDING

Magical World Builder’s Guide

I Love the End of the World

World Building 101

The Art of Description: Eight Tips to Help You Bring Your Settings to Life

Creating the Perfect Setting – Part I

Creating a Believable World

An Impatient Writer’s Approach to Worldbuilding

Fantasy Worldbuilding Questions

Setting

Character and Setting Interactions

Creating Fantasy and Science Fiction Worlds

Creating Fantasy Worlds

Questions About Worldbuilding

Maps Workshop — Developing the Fictional World Through Mapping

World Builder Projects

IDEAS, INSPIRATION

Quick Story Idea Generator

Solve Your Problems Simply by Saying Them Out Loud

Busting Your Writing Rut

Writing Inspiration, or Sex on a Bicycle

Creative Acceleration: 11 Tips to Engineer a Productive Flow

The Seven Major Beginner Mistakes

Complete Your First Book with these 9 Simple Writing Habits

Free Association, Active Imagination, Twilight Imaging

Random Book Title Generator

Finishing Your Novel

Story Starters and Idea Generators

REVISION

How to Rewrite

One-Pass Manuscript Revision: From First Draft to Last in One Cycle

Editing Recipe

Cliche Finder

Revising Your Novel: Read What You’ve Written

Writing 101: So You Want to Write a Novel Part 3: Revising a Novel

TOOLS and SOFTWARE

My Writing Nook (online text editor; free)

Bubbl.us (online mind map application; free)

Freemind (mind map application; free; Windows, Mac, Linux, portable)

XMind (mind map application; free; Windows, Mac, Linux, portable)

Liquid Story Binder (novel organization and writing software; free trial, $45.95; Windows, portable)

Scrivener (novel organization and writing software; free trial, $39.95; Mac)

SuperNotecard (novel organization and writing software; free trial, $29; Windows, Mac, Linux, portable)

yWriter (novel organization and writing software; free; Windows, Linux, portable)

JDarkRoom (minimalist text editor; free; Windows, Mac, Linux, portable)

AutoRealm (map creation software; free; Windows, Linux with Wine)

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The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.

Friedrich Nietzsche

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The most important thing I learned on Tralfamadore was that when a person dies he only appears to die. He is still very much alive in the past, so it is very silly for people to cry at his funeral. All moments, past, present and future, always have existed, always will exist. The Tralfamadorians can look at all the different moments just that way we can look at a stretch of the Rocky Mountains, for instance. They can see how permanent all the moments are, and they can look at any moment that interests them. It is just an illusion we have here on Earth that one moment follows another one, like beads on a string, and that once a moment is gone it is gone forever.
Kurt Vonnegut (Slaughterhouse Five)

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